God has been dealing with me a lot lately about the type of woman I’m seeking to be and the woman He’s preparing me to be. And for the first time in my life, it seems like those two women are actually the same person. It doesn’t feel like I’m running in the opposite direction or that the person I want to be is not the woman I was created to be. I’m not chasing or yearning to be anyone other than who God has created me to be. I don’t think I’ve ever pursued God’s purpose for my life harder than I am now, which means I’ve never found so much peace and reassurance inside of me as it relates to who I surround myself with, what I do with my time, who I allow in my space, the organizations I’m a part of, the leadership roles I’ve stepped into, and ultimately the impact I’m making.
One day I thought to myself, “Imani, what do you want people to remember about you after being in your presence?” I decided I didn’t want them to think I was pretty, talented, or even that I was intelligent. I don’t want people to remember what I did or the positions I held. I want people to remember the impact I made on them, whether they spent a few minutes with me or a few years. I want them to remember if I made them smile, if I made them think about their life and if they were living their purpose, I want them to remember that they saw Jesus in me, and I want them to remember that I pushed them in their pursuit to pursue the passions and callings that God placed inside of them. I want them to remember Him and how a moment with me was more about Him than it was me. I decided I wanted the Lord to be glorified and for Him to be lifted in people’s memories of me.
A few weeks ago, I told God that I wanted to be a woman that used my life, words, and actions to penetrate the hearts of women around the world and caused them to be pushed closer to Him. I told the Lord that I wanted to be more like the women I admire and am inspired by – Sarah Jakes Roberts, Heather Lindsey, Lisa Bevere, Holly Furtick. The same day I told Him this, a woman messaged me on Facebook describing how blessed she was just by friending me on the app, looking at my posts, and seeing Jesus in me. She asked me to pray for a very personal situation of hers. In this moment, I was busy and I was annoyed because I had so many things to accomplish. I said God, why? I don’t have time for this. He simply said, “This is what you asked for”. That was my reality check. In that moment, I had to remind myself of my claims of wanting to reach women and affect them the way other women have affected me. I immediately got my life together and began praying for this woman – because that is my purpose. That is the woman I want to be. That is what I want to spend the rest of my life doing – being a light, a guide, an encourager, and an inspiration to women around the world.
A few things that have helped me in my plight to becoming this woman and that keep prompting me to keep chasing my purpose of being that woman are: remembering the importance of having the heart of God versus just seeking the hand of God, actively reading His word and making sure I’m consuming the right things, and paying close attention to women who have the same qualities I want to ultimately possess.
I’ve said all of this to say that your passions and the things you are seeking to be are not by accident. God has placed certain things inside of you. Don’t disregard them and don’t brush them off because those things will ultimately be a part of His plan for your life. Be careful what you ask God for and make sure that when HE gives it to you, you are prepared. Don’t ask Him to help mold you into a certain type of woman and then run away when He starts doing it. Be ready and be prepared to FIGHT to become that woman. It’s worth it. It’s time to start figuring out what type of woman you want to be and living in that reality. Choose wisely. Someone is waiting on you to become the woman you’re after, so that their life can be changed by the life you breathe into them. Not by your beauty or your talents but by your IMPACT. Who will you be? What will people remember after being in your presence? Will they be grateful to have been with you?
As always love God, love people and be the type of woman other women find comfort, freedom, and Jesus in. You may be the only Jesus they see.