If you read my blogs regularly, you know that last semester was a really trying season in my life. You know that I barely made it out as far as spiritual battles are concerned. The enemy really had his hands on my heart, my mind, my spirit, and my body. The sad thing is I allowed it. Funny enough, there was one thing I could always count on to keep me motivated and determined to make it through last semester. Every morning when I showered, I listened to the song “It is Well” by Bethel. Most days I cried my eyes out, other days I felt the lyrics peacefully resonate in my spirit, and others days, I was indifferent to what God was trying to do through the song. But I listened to it every morning no matter what my disposition the day before was.
That song helped pull me out of the darkest time I’ve experienced in my life thus far. It literally helped me put back together the broken pieces of my life. Jesus used that song to literally save my spiritual life. Without that prompting to worship Jesus in spite of, I’m not sure where I would be right now or what state of mind I would be in. I am more than grateful that Jesus placed those song lyrics in the heart of His people, because it healed me.
One of the definitions of the word “well” is “entirely or fully.” The song “It is Well” helped me grasp the concept that to be “well” means to be entirely and fully at peace with God’s will. It helped me understand the circumstances and trials DON’T dictate the peace of God or our ability to be well with His will. It helped me grasp that even when I don’t understand God or His purpose or His timing, I have to be “well” with it no matter what. It reminded me that I need to keep my eyes on the Lord through even the hardest of situations. It helped me see through my brokenness. It helped me work through my self-loathing thoughts, and my difficult transition to sophomore year. It helped me learn to be okay with losing friends and life not working out how I wanted it to. It helped me understand that the peace of God lives inside of me and that no matter what happens to me or gets me off track, I always have that peace to revert back to. The song helped me ease my mind on the hardest days and stay joyful on the happiest days. It reminded me that there was always something to look forward to. It reinforced the idea that through all of my struggles with myself and with life, it was well.
Because of this song, I’m now trying to live everyday in a state of “wellness”. I’m fighting to keep my eyes on God, in order to do the impossible. I know that no matter what winds, rains, or storms show up in my life, if I keep my eyes on the One who controls it all, I will be okay. I can conquer anything that is thrown my way. I now know that being “well” comes from knowing I am God’s child, that He controls the universe, and that He loves me and always has my best interest at heart. I know that if I trust in the Lord and His plan for me, I won’t worry because I know only good can come out of His purpose for my life. So, it is well with me. No matter what “it” is.
As I get older and my will falls apart, I continuously get to watch God’s will for my life fall together. Sometimes, His will leaves me feeling stranded and hurting, but I know that all things work together for my good. I know that every time He closes a door, He has something better for me in store. Some of the doors He closes in my face come with some tough pills to swallow, but I’m learning that nothing that God does will make any sense to our human brains in the beginning… especially if itmakes us uncomfortable…. and that’s okay. I know now that if God’s will made sense to us, we wouldn’t need Him. We could do it on our own and that’s simply not the case. I’ve learned that living in a state of peace and wellness shows how much you truly trust the Lord. It is my desire that one day my struggles in accepting God’s will can help somebody else. I hope that my story will remind people that His will is WELL. I’m so glad He loves me enough to continue to show me mercy and grace and favor with the things He allows me to grow through. So if you’re struggling with something God is doing in your life, remember that He knows exactly what he’s doing. Always be “well” with His will, so that you are always in the position to see the beauty in His blessings.
As always love God, love people, and be intentional about living in a state of wellness.