I believe I decided to truly give my life to the Lord in tenth grade. No games. No lies. No pretending. Just me striving to live my life in a way that was pleasing to Him. But, I can remember always feeling guilty and ashamed of my past. Even though I KNEW the Lord had forgiven me, I found myself always at the alter, always feeling like I needed to rededicate my life, and always feeling like I had something in me that was keeping me from truly living for Jesus.
It took me a long time to realize that I was letting the devil penalize me for things God had already forgiven me for. I was letting satan place a burden of guilt and shame on me, which hindered my growth and blocked me from getting to the next level God was calling me to. For years, I let this spirit of condemnation ruin me form the inside out. I was paralyzed and disabled and heavy with guilt; which caused me to miss the mark in some of my assignments from God.
The truth is that when you make the decision to live wholly for God and to chase Him with no restraints and ask him for forgiveness, you are free. You are free from your past, from those bad decisions, from the person you used to be. You are no longer attached to that sin. Jesus made a way for us when He died on the cross. He took on the burden of our sins, so we don’t have to be weighed down by our old selves. The truth is nothing can separate you from the love of Jesus, not even your past. Because of His forgiveness, we don’t have to live in shame anymore. He redeemed us. (redeemed: free from blame) We were made free when He died for us. The truth is condemnation is too big of a burden for you to carry. Let it go. The truth is that the spirit of condemnation is one of the biggest tools the devil uses to distract the people of God and to deceive them. The longer you hold on to it, the longer the devil stifles you from doing the work of God and truly living in your calling. The truth is the weight of sin is no longer ours to bare. Jesus took it all. He paid it all on calvary. The truth is when you grasp this concept, you will start TRULY living a victorious life.
It took me years to understand this. Honestly, I tapped into this concept and its true meaning a few minutes before writing this post. I feel light, free, and useful. I hope it doesn’t take you as long as me. I hope you can let go of that burden of guilt, so that God can use you to the fullest. I hope this helps.
As always.. Love God, Love people, and stop letting the devil condemn you when God has made you free. Romans 8:1.